😞Feeling like I don’t fit in anywhere! Trying to find my place and Gods purpose❤️

I love my life. I love my family. I’m grateful for everything I’ve built.

I just find myself standing at a crossroads, wondering what comes next—and trying not to cry while I figure it out.

Maybe midlife isn’t about having all the answers. Maybe it’s about being brave enough trust God to show you where you belong next. ❤️

🌻I’m trying to go back to work.

But I don’t just want a job.

I want flexibility.

I want some freedom.

I want to use my leadership skills.

I want to feel valued for the life experience I’ve gained—not just the letters after my name.

✨And I need a job that fits into my family’s life, too.

That seems like it should be reasonable.

Yet somehow, it feels incredibly hard.

And here’s the frustrating part:

❤️I actually love the work I’m doing.❤️

I love caring for people. I love my patients. I love being a nurse. I love using the skills I’ve worked so hard to build.

The problem isn’t that I don’t want to work.

The 40 hours just are hard with this family.

🌸And I don’t want to miss the things that matter to me at home just to prove that I’m willing to work full-time.

🏡I have a family. I have kids who need me. I have places to be, people to support, and a life outside of my job.

😎I want both.

I want to contribute.

I want to use my skills.

I want to keep growing.

And I want to be present for my family.

🧐Why does that feel like such a difficult thing to find?

Sometimes it feels like every option requires me to give up something important.

😕And lately, it has left me wondering if there is even a place for someone like me…other than home.

Today, I found myself in tears wondering if I’m missing something. 🙏I’ve prayed about this for a long time. I keep asking God to show me the path, and if I’m being completely honest, there are days when I wonder, “Are You even hearing me?”

I know that probably isn’t the prettiest thing to admit.

But it’s real.

🌸Sometimes faith looks like believing even when you don’t feel like you’re getting an answer.

I’m also struggling with something else.

I’m a newish nurse.

But I am not a new human.🙋‍♀️

👩‍⚕️I may be newer to nursing as an RN, but I have decades of life experience, healthcare experience, leadership, caregiving, teaching, wellness, raising children, working with people, and simply learning how to navigate life.

A degree does not erase everything I knew before I earned it.

And being new in one profession doesn’t mean I have nothing to offer.

I know things.

I know how to connect with people.

I know how to care for people.

I know how to listen.

I know how to lead.

I know how to make people feel comfortable when they are scared or vulnerable.

And I know that patient care is about more than checking boxes.

I genuinely care about people.

✨That matters.

But lately, I’ve wondered…

Does anyone see that?

Have you ever felt like no one really sees what you bring to the table?

Like you don’t quite fit anywhere?

Too experienced for one position.

Too new for another.

Too much responsibility at home for full-time work.

Too independent for something that doesn’t give you any freedom.

And then you start wondering if maybe you should just stay home.

🥹Maybe you’ve had that thought too.

Maybe you’ve wondered if there is actually a place for you in this next chapter of your life.

I don’t have a neat ending to this post because I’m still in the middle of it.

I don’t know exactly what God has planned for me.

And today, I don’t feel like I have all the answers.

But I’m trying to remember something:

Not knowing where you belong yet 🦋doesn’t mean you don’t belong.

Maybe this season isn’t about forcing the door open.

Maybe it’s about continuing to knock on the right ones.

❤️Maybe the experience I have spent years collecting isn’t wasted just because it doesn’t fit neatly into a job description.

Maybe there is something ahead that I can’t see yet.

So today, I’m going to let myself be disappointed.

I’m going to cry if I need to.

I’m going to pray—even if my prayer is simply, “God, please show me what I’m supposed to do.”

And tomorrow, I’ll get back up and keep going.

Because I refuse to believe that at forty-something, my best contributions are behind me.

I actually think there is a lot more in me.

❤️And maybe there is a lot more in you, too.

If you’re in a season where you feel overlooked, stuck, too old, too young, too experienced, not experienced enough, or like you don’t fit anywhere…

Please don’t decide that you have no place.

You may simply not have found your place yet.

Keep going.

Keep praying.

Keep learning.

Keep showing up as yourself.

And remember: your worth was never determined by a job title.

Maybe we’re not lost.

Maybe we’re just being redirected.

And I’m going to hold onto that today. ❤️

Together we can and will Age Well,

Xoxo— Addie, RN, certified fitness instructor, certified fitness nutrition specialist, certified weight lost specialist, certified in Pilates, Yoga, PIYO, Stress Management, Meditation, TurboKick, WERQ, Body Pump, Zumba, retired Salon Owner and Cosmetology Instructor, Author, blog creator, wife and mom of two sets of twins, 2 pups, 1 lizard, 3 fish and now a stray 🐱 cat.